After our third miscarriage, I made a sweeping declaration that there was no way we’d be trying to get pregnant anytime soon. It was too hard and I couldn’t do it. But, God had another plan for us. I heard Him telling me to try again; I felt Him changing my heart and my mind, opening me up to the possibility of being pregnant again. And on August 8, 2018, that possibility became the reality when we saw our fourth positive pregnancy test.
As I sit here thinking about our third baby, our baby we lovingly referred to as Little Bean during those joy-filled weeks of believing this would be our rainbow baby, I figured it was time to share their story. So here it is, the story of our third miscarriage, exactly one month after our baby left my body… Continue reading →
When you lose a baby, certain dates start to carry an immense amount of meaning. They remain etched in your brain forever and can come with a lot of grief and dread when they come around each year… the day you found out you were pregnant, the anniversary of seeing your baby in a sonogram for the first time, the day you found out your baby’s heart had stopped beating, the date your baby would have been due, and, of course, Mother’s Day. Continue reading →
Last April, I shared the story of our first baby, Ellis Ford. Well, I’m here today to share the story of our second miscarriage, of our Baby Pea whom I was blessed to carry for a short time…
Despite the overwhelming grief of losing our first baby, we were determined to try again. And we were blessed to conceive our second baby just over 2 months after the loss of our first. We got the positive pregnancy test on July 9th and spent the next 2 1/2 weeks in a weird dichotomy of feelings – utter joy and terrible fear. And our fears unfortunately came true on July 28th. Continue reading →